I wish...

I can't wait to move into our new place so I can get my organization on.

I will burn candles and get all festive for the upcoming holidays.

NO SNACKS on the carpet that is for sure. Right now our current carpet looks like shit.

NO JUNK (DH) laying on the counters/floor/bathroom whatever.

I will have fresh bread baking every day, clean sheets, and laundry caught up 24/7.


HHAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

Because your two

Dear sweet baby boy that I love with all of my heart:

Why must you touch everything that you are not supposed to?

Why must you spill my coffee atleast once a week?

Why can you not keep your tounge and hands off of the tv?

Why from the moment you wake up you whine?

Why cant you sleep thru the night? Specifically why were you up 5 times night befeore last?

Why when I am having a bad day do you seem to have an even worse one?

....

Why when I watch you sleep so peacefully I just want to crawl in the crib with you and snuggle?

Why when you put your breakfast in your potty can I not help but laugh?

Why is it that when you rock yourself in the recliner it melts my heart to hear you sing bye oh baby?

Why do you give the best kisses and hugs on earth?

Because you are my 2 year old "baby" and I love you!

Eyes open?

So my last post I wrote this blog off.

ALOT of things have happened since then. Things arent perfect. Im not perfect BUT man today I think I have finally figured out how to survive.

As much as it sucked, I motivated myself to get off of my ass and do something.

I can't sit around forever bitching about something and waiting for it to happen. I HAVE TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.

SO today I have accomplished quite a bit (for me lately...)
--got breakfast made for Leyton (Pancakes instead of the easy out granola bars)
--Showered and out of the house by 9:30 (instead of staying in our pajamas and not showering for a day or two)
--Went to the dollar store and picked up a new toothbrush and Trash Bags.
--Went to Target and let Leyton walk instead of caging him in the cart. Picked up an Elmo Potty Time dvd and an Elmo book.(Leyton did very well walking around holding my hand..or the Elmo book. He listened the WHOLE time and I did not lose my patience.)
--Sat on the floor and played trains.
--Watched the Elmo Potty dvd two times. Took a small stab at potty training...we arent ready quite yet.
--made the phone call to our leasing office and cleared up things about the new place and the old. pro rated rent and such...

So see... I can do things if I put my damn mind to it. I cant be miserable forever because..well being miserable sucks. No one else will motivate me so I gotta do it for myself...and my baby boy.

Tomorrow's list includes:
--Call cable company
--Call electric company
--Call Uhaul
--maaaaaybe call and see about daycare subsidy and how that works.

That is alot of phone calls in one day for me (lately) so we will see how that goes. Its going to be 99 here tomorrow, too. So maybe we will beat the heat at the pool. MAYBE.

The end of my blog

This is the end of my blog. It was quite fun while it lasted but sadly it doesnt seem worth it anymore.

Something I thought I would never ever hear in my life...I heard today.

I remember thinking when I was younger how my family was invincible and I have always carried that in the back of my mind as I grew older.

Today I realized thats not true.

We arent invincible...but we are strong and are going to get thru this, I pray.

Today I found out that my father has liver cancer.

If you pray, please do. We could really use good thoughts right now.

woooooooooooooooooooooo

Well it is 3:35 pm and I just turned on the recorded Crue Fest of 08.

I knew when I pressed play I shouldnt have. Now I just went in the bathroom and did my hurrr.... and makeup all pretty.

NOW I just need something cute to put on. Then I can pretend I am on vacation and dance in the livingroom with Leyton.

Awwww... Home Sweet Home is on now. God I love the Crue.

There is no point to this post really. Just to let you all know that I am alive... and ROCKIN!

Its throwback Thursday.

I am going to put Leyton to bed at 7pm after a nice warm bath.

Then...I am going to head to the back porch and blare some loud music and have a few drinks.

There is a 6 pack in the fridge and voddy in the freezer.

I am going to sing to myself. Laugh at myself. Reminisce. and make pizza at midnight.

I am going to surf the internet while listening to 80's tunes. Leave funny comments on blogs and on the BHB and on facebook.

Just like old times when my man was in bootcamp. Imma gonna do it and you cant stop me!

Party on dudes!

Well Well Well

Lately I have been in quite the funk. Kinda related to my last post I suppose.

Well yesterday I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and get off my azz and do something FUN!....we went to OceanBreeze Waterpark and had a freaking BLAST!!!

I spent too much money but it was so worth it to see the look on Leytons face everytime we went down the slides! I love being a mommy!